sometimes we just want someone who is willing to protect us at any costs. keep us away from danger, even to the extent of deceiving us. living each day in lies, putting on a front. suffering and enduring the pain all by themselves and not let us in an inch to share their burdens. all they hope for is to see us everyday in their lives.
why are there people out there who are so selfless? they always spare a thought for others but never themselves. i become pale in comparsion. the things i have been doing all these years evolve around me. personal achievement, my own time, my leisure, my social life! i have never shared a single part of me with them. i am like a lone ranger living in my own world.
i claim i did all these are for them. is that just an excuse for what i have done? how noble i am in front of others! i feel like shit, trying to fill up the hole in my heart. painting a picture but it never turns out to be perfect. does that make me feel better?
i am just disgusted by myself.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Thursday, June 14, 2007
limitations
before i blog about what i want to say, i am damn angry now!!! i cant play ep 9 of pb season 2. yaya, i have completed the entire season but i am still pissed. i cant play it after i lend it to someone. damn it!!! did she ill treat it while i was away? arghhh!!!
working has been rather slack except when i am throw with multiple small tasks to do. based on what i know of myself, i will want to finish them asap. although i tell frens that "sorry, i was busy just now", it is just me wanting to finish it fast. i am about to end my current job in about one month's time but somehow i feel that there are much more things i want to do before the school starts.
making a list in my head, i realized cash is an obstacle. save up! that is what i always tell myself but seriously, how much and how long can i save up to get there? be practical girl!!!
no matter how unreasonable and conservative my parents can be at times, i still love them for giving me the space to breathe and freedom to enjoy. however, i have to pay a high price for this independence. they will advise you this this this and conclude everything by saying "ultimately, you have to think for yourself". omg! i felt the soil moved for a split second. it does not help at all when they say that to me. it just makes things worse. i hate to do things without having the support i want.
i just want to get out of school soon, when things are fully controlled by myself.
working has been rather slack except when i am throw with multiple small tasks to do. based on what i know of myself, i will want to finish them asap. although i tell frens that "sorry, i was busy just now", it is just me wanting to finish it fast. i am about to end my current job in about one month's time but somehow i feel that there are much more things i want to do before the school starts.
making a list in my head, i realized cash is an obstacle. save up! that is what i always tell myself but seriously, how much and how long can i save up to get there? be practical girl!!!
no matter how unreasonable and conservative my parents can be at times, i still love them for giving me the space to breathe and freedom to enjoy. however, i have to pay a high price for this independence. they will advise you this this this and conclude everything by saying "ultimately, you have to think for yourself". omg! i felt the soil moved for a split second. it does not help at all when they say that to me. it just makes things worse. i hate to do things without having the support i want.
i just want to get out of school soon, when things are fully controlled by myself.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
wednesday blues
most suffer from monday blues but to me, the hardest day to spend is wednesday. i hate wednesday. it is called the hump day in my language. it is neither at the beginning nor the end of the week. i dont feel excited because weekends seem so far away. i am not feeling tired because i should have enough rest from play by wednesday. argh!! i just dont like the feeling of not being here and there. i am stuck right in the middle. totally dreadful day!!!
Sunday, June 03, 2007
mayday JUMP!!!
i was blown away by mayday again!!! i just went to their concert and i am totally more in love with them, especially monster. he is extremely charming when he played his electric guitar. i shall start revising my chords again. =)
emotions was running high when i turned back and looked. everyone at the max pavilion was on their feet. we were all swinging our lousy yet expensive lightsticks to the music, singing to our hearts' content. i guess that is the power of mayday. it proves something since they have been in the industry for a long time.
the thing about mayday is i love their songs. listen carefully to the lyrics and you will start to realise they mean something. somehow or rather, the words always fit nicely in the situation i am or was in. their songs never fails to give me hope and definitely the courage to dream.
i just want to get back to the place and relive the moment again.
Friday, June 01, 2007
i will be independent
it is yet another peaceful night. it feels great after taking a long and hot bath. why do i always start to feel when only distance separates me from them? i am not afraid, and definitely not lost. they had repeated the list of must-do-things to me since last week and i can read them out backwards now. i know exactly how and what i should do but the sudden sense of emptiness is overwhelming.
a gesture of putting his arm over my shoulder, telling me to take good care of myself warmed my heart instantly. i kinda regretted what i did last night but i am still angry over it. a gentle reminder to look after myself makes me want to protect them even more. why do i feel that i have failed to be the perfect daughter? i hate the current state of life i am in now, struggling with the limited ability i have.
i dont want to watch the television dramas alone. i dont want to argue with the person i see in the mirror. i need someone to bicker with me. i want to be nagged at. i want someone to pull me off my bed every morning. be safe! =)
a gesture of putting his arm over my shoulder, telling me to take good care of myself warmed my heart instantly. i kinda regretted what i did last night but i am still angry over it. a gentle reminder to look after myself makes me want to protect them even more. why do i feel that i have failed to be the perfect daughter? i hate the current state of life i am in now, struggling with the limited ability i have.
i dont want to watch the television dramas alone. i dont want to argue with the person i see in the mirror. i need someone to bicker with me. i want to be nagged at. i want someone to pull me off my bed every morning. be safe! =)
Sunday, May 27, 2007
never weak
i have always told myself never to be weak in front of others. no matter how tough things get, i will always be the last man standing. i will not cry. i will not shout for help. i will bear the burden. i will endure the pain. i maybe exhausted after the fight but i will be a stronger person. i will face all the crap now and i am also the one who will have the last laugh. i will not be the person i hate the most.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
on your own
no matter how ugly the working world is, the desire to work and to live independently never leaves my body. it has been almost a month since i started work and i am starting to dislike the ugly side of humans. it convinces me that man is selfish and seriously, it is a man eats man world outside. back stabbing, pushing off responsibilities and definitely covering our asses. i have to the fittest in order to survive, just like being the sole survivor in the reality show. so how much talk about competitive school environment. it is nothing when compared to the outside world.
in school, i am just a pampered kid in the eyes of the working adults. who am i to talk about competitiveness? i have yet to face the real danger. errors become mistakes and i will be forgiven in school. at work, i will have to prepare to pack my bags and go. and if my boss is a little kinder, a pair of simple ear plugs will do the job.
i wonder how i am going to survive in the future. wake up your idea! the entire world does not evolve around you. the whole thing is not just about you, it is more about a team. start working together to make things work. i hate it when everything boils down to individualism. if it is part of your job scope, be proactive and take up the responsibility. stop trying to find excuses to push it off just by saying, "sorry, i am busy". how can you expect ourselves to cover your duties? where the hell is your sense of responsibilities and shamefulness?
it is all about faults!!! when can i look at the strengths of others? stop being a critical person. afterall, it is just a temporary job to spend time and to earn some money. take it easily and maybe i will start to love my job more.
in school, i am just a pampered kid in the eyes of the working adults. who am i to talk about competitiveness? i have yet to face the real danger. errors become mistakes and i will be forgiven in school. at work, i will have to prepare to pack my bags and go. and if my boss is a little kinder, a pair of simple ear plugs will do the job.
i wonder how i am going to survive in the future. wake up your idea! the entire world does not evolve around you. the whole thing is not just about you, it is more about a team. start working together to make things work. i hate it when everything boils down to individualism. if it is part of your job scope, be proactive and take up the responsibility. stop trying to find excuses to push it off just by saying, "sorry, i am busy". how can you expect ourselves to cover your duties? where the hell is your sense of responsibilities and shamefulness?
it is all about faults!!! when can i look at the strengths of others? stop being a critical person. afterall, it is just a temporary job to spend time and to earn some money. take it easily and maybe i will start to love my job more.
Friday, May 18, 2007
dreams
when school ends, blogging is the last thing on my mind that i want to do. probably because i have many other better stuff to keep myself busy with for the past few weeks, like working, watching anime and not forgetting my drinking sessions. talking about drinking, i think i suck at drinking now. so to those out there who hate me, you can make me drunk and leave me by the roadside for revenge. i need to drink more often to up my tolerance or else stupid, fat and ugly dabai will start laughing at me again.
he was telling me there are 4 obstacles to realizing dreams. i think i belong to the baker now. i have achieved what i always want to and right now, my life has came to a stand still. so how am i supposed to proceed from here? it is like i have lost something in my life, not knowing where to go next. even when i set my mind in doing something, the drive is not as strong as before, the passion is not there. everything just seems so blur and i am clueless. i know one day, i will find my direction but right now, i just have to recharge myself before the next sprint.
i have given up hope on it. i know things are not going to work out so i dont think there is any point in holding onto it for my dear life. i have much better and more meaningful stuff to do rather than hoping and waiting. i am sick of the uncertainity. i am happy alone.
double doses of friendships!
he was telling me there are 4 obstacles to realizing dreams. i think i belong to the baker now. i have achieved what i always want to and right now, my life has came to a stand still. so how am i supposed to proceed from here? it is like i have lost something in my life, not knowing where to go next. even when i set my mind in doing something, the drive is not as strong as before, the passion is not there. everything just seems so blur and i am clueless. i know one day, i will find my direction but right now, i just have to recharge myself before the next sprint.
i have given up hope on it. i know things are not going to work out so i dont think there is any point in holding onto it for my dear life. i have much better and more meaningful stuff to do rather than hoping and waiting. i am sick of the uncertainity. i am happy alone.
double doses of friendships!
Saturday, May 05, 2007
passion
it is amazing to know the extend that passion can do to our lives. the burning flame within is always calling out to us to do we want to do. always to pursue our dreams! no matter how simple or stupid it may sound to others, we just have to standby our beliefs and just do it. why should we bother about what others think, feel or look at us? we dont live our lives for them but for ourselves. so we should just go all out for our passion. nothing is impossible but is it really that case?
sometimes, all we lack is luck. the talents, the right moment, the perfect combination but luck is just not there. we struggle with all our might to live our dreams but end up, we suffer and injure ourselves. is it a sign to stop? we will not want to stop because we are all set to get it or nothing. it is the time when someone who truly cares for us to step into the picture.
stop, and rest if we must! that is what we hear. pursuing our dreams blindly is not doing any good to anyone. so what if we get what we want in the end? a bright future and a comfortable life. are these really the only things that we are looking for in life? we may have neglected people who are dear to us in the process. kinship, friendship, love and concern are priceless. they are feelings that we cannot hold or own and are usually turn into regret when it is too late.
maybe sometimes it is wise for us to be contented with our lives. never to compare because we may appear pale under comparsion. why should we make ourselves miserable by doing ourselves a disfavour? so, it is time to stop thinking and go out there and hug everyone! hugging is the best form of emotional support. so, i am going to hug my pillow and head off to sleep.
sometimes, all we lack is luck. the talents, the right moment, the perfect combination but luck is just not there. we struggle with all our might to live our dreams but end up, we suffer and injure ourselves. is it a sign to stop? we will not want to stop because we are all set to get it or nothing. it is the time when someone who truly cares for us to step into the picture.
stop, and rest if we must! that is what we hear. pursuing our dreams blindly is not doing any good to anyone. so what if we get what we want in the end? a bright future and a comfortable life. are these really the only things that we are looking for in life? we may have neglected people who are dear to us in the process. kinship, friendship, love and concern are priceless. they are feelings that we cannot hold or own and are usually turn into regret when it is too late.
maybe sometimes it is wise for us to be contented with our lives. never to compare because we may appear pale under comparsion. why should we make ourselves miserable by doing ourselves a disfavour? so, it is time to stop thinking and go out there and hug everyone! hugging is the best form of emotional support. so, i am going to hug my pillow and head off to sleep.
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
when everything ends
when everything ends, how do you feel? lost because you dont know what you can do when you reach home since you have nothing to work towards now. happy because it is 3 months of holidays with no mugging. worried because you did not put in your best. emotionless because you are too tired to feel anything. all i know is that i dont want to stay at home for long hours anymore. i am sick of being at home, sitting by my desk because i had been doing that for the past one month. so out, out, out of my house!
it shall start with a small celebration with overwhelming of food. first night was steamboat and dessert which made me go crazy on my way home. luckily the bus driver was a skilful driver. if not, there was a high chance for me to puke on the bus. today was more food!!! it was my first time eating vietnamese food and i am loving it. it was just rice noodles but it was heavy enough for me to give up on my durian zhu change feng. =( i am going back to try it for the sake of DURIAN.
yes, it is food, food and more food. i thought of something big to do when i was busy mugging away. i have not told anyone about it yet. i am not sure if it will work because it does not only concern me. i seriously hope to have the green light to try it out and most importantly for it to work.
happy working tmr! =D
it shall start with a small celebration with overwhelming of food. first night was steamboat and dessert which made me go crazy on my way home. luckily the bus driver was a skilful driver. if not, there was a high chance for me to puke on the bus. today was more food!!! it was my first time eating vietnamese food and i am loving it. it was just rice noodles but it was heavy enough for me to give up on my durian zhu change feng. =( i am going back to try it for the sake of DURIAN.
yes, it is food, food and more food. i thought of something big to do when i was busy mugging away. i have not told anyone about it yet. i am not sure if it will work because it does not only concern me. i seriously hope to have the green light to try it out and most importantly for it to work.
happy working tmr! =D
Sunday, April 29, 2007
overloaded
seriously, suffering from information overload after a night on biology. it is killing me but luckily i have made some progress. oh my!!! my head is going to burst soon and i am not willing to hit my bed yet. it is the last paper on monday and things will be bright and cheerful for me once more. may is a happy month for me.
my heart jumped abit when i heard similar noises. i am not sure if they are coming from the same source as before or not. i am not scared or worried. i just did goi's favourite action, roll my eyes. if it really happens like before, i am not going to do anything. i even pictured myself shutting down my laptop, grab my bio notes and TB and marched downstairs or anywhere else to continue with my revision. cruel right? nah. it is an act of being sick and tired of things repeating themselves. i just want to have something new to breathe in my life.
sometimes, it is just not about others. i have to live for myself somedays too. so it is all about ME. if history ever repeats itself, i will bring her along with me and leave provided i have the ability. selfish, heartless, emotionless creature. whatever! they describe me perfectly well. hang on!!!
my heart jumped abit when i heard similar noises. i am not sure if they are coming from the same source as before or not. i am not scared or worried. i just did goi's favourite action, roll my eyes. if it really happens like before, i am not going to do anything. i even pictured myself shutting down my laptop, grab my bio notes and TB and marched downstairs or anywhere else to continue with my revision. cruel right? nah. it is an act of being sick and tired of things repeating themselves. i just want to have something new to breathe in my life.
sometimes, it is just not about others. i have to live for myself somedays too. so it is all about ME. if history ever repeats itself, i will bring her along with me and leave provided i have the ability. selfish, heartless, emotionless creature. whatever! they describe me perfectly well. hang on!!!
Saturday, April 28, 2007
friends
in times when i feel like dying, a simple email is all that i need to make me realise life is not that bad afterall. when i feel like the world is going to crash on me anytime, friends never fail to remind me that there is someone out there who cares for me. a call or a short message brings me back to earth and decides to finish what i initially set off for. i feel good and hopeful again! i cant wait for may to come. (did i say that before?)
Sunday, April 22, 2007
my last breath
the anxiety is killing me. all these waiting is making me go INSANE. why on earth does 30 apr never seem to be approaching? looking at the pile of revision that needs to be done by then, i want to faint and never to wake up till may arrives. why are not my fainting spells working when i need them the most? damn!
i have to drag to my room, force my butt on the chair, convince myself that nothing is impossible, and study. it is obstructing me from enjoying life. mugging from exams is definitely not an enjoyable thing to do when not all your friends are mugging with you. how i wish we could all experience this shit now!
there are so many things i want to do NOW!! i want to go blading!!!! pee, let's hit ecp when exams are over okay? let's skate and have a shitty tan. liting, i want to meet up with u!! remember our drinking session okay? fat, you will be back soon. i want to go your house and laze around(that's so not me but after exams, anything sounds perfect). flood my fridge with bnj ice cream. i swear i will be a happy girl if i can eat that everyday. spiderman and captain jack sparrow, i shall meet you in may, not forgetting micheal and jiro! i have not been dating them especially micheal for a super duper long time. i am dying to see my eye candies again. i want to drool. and and and, more birthday celebrations! may shall be the month of celebrations!
just let me sleep in my dreamland and wake me up when may arrives. come on, may!! hurry hurry, come fast!! stop lagging and run.
i have to drag to my room, force my butt on the chair, convince myself that nothing is impossible, and study. it is obstructing me from enjoying life. mugging from exams is definitely not an enjoyable thing to do when not all your friends are mugging with you. how i wish we could all experience this shit now!
there are so many things i want to do NOW!! i want to go blading!!!! pee, let's hit ecp when exams are over okay? let's skate and have a shitty tan. liting, i want to meet up with u!! remember our drinking session okay? fat, you will be back soon. i want to go your house and laze around(that's so not me but after exams, anything sounds perfect). flood my fridge with bnj ice cream. i swear i will be a happy girl if i can eat that everyday. spiderman and captain jack sparrow, i shall meet you in may, not forgetting micheal and jiro! i have not been dating them especially micheal for a super duper long time. i am dying to see my eye candies again. i want to drool. and and and, more birthday celebrations! may shall be the month of celebrations!
just let me sleep in my dreamland and wake me up when may arrives. come on, may!! hurry hurry, come fast!! stop lagging and run.
Friday, April 20, 2007
cry
what is the point of crying? does it help to solve the problem? sadly, the tears flowed arent going to do anything. if that is the case, then why do people cry? it is a form of expression. just like when people say a funny joke, we laugh. so when we feel sad, we cry. it is a source of letting our emotions flow. furthermore, it is better to express ourselves than to keep hiding everything to ourselves. so we should cry.
no! i dont agree with that. someone once told me not to cry because it shows my weaknesses. till today, i still believe in that. crying is just a waste of time and energy. i could have put that amount of time to think of a solution rather than to be at the same spot.
jap drama always have the power to make me blog and think. parting is not the end, it is the beginning.
no! i dont agree with that. someone once told me not to cry because it shows my weaknesses. till today, i still believe in that. crying is just a waste of time and energy. i could have put that amount of time to think of a solution rather than to be at the same spot.
jap drama always have the power to make me blog and think. parting is not the end, it is the beginning.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
birth-DAYS!!!
i love birth-DAYS even though it isnt my own. celebrate the day well. treat yourself better than other days, just keep smiling. make yourself feel like everything revolves around you. it may sound wrong but why bother to live each day in the politically right model? you truly deserve a day to pamper yourself and bring trouble to the people around you.
remember birth-DAYS! a simple SMS birthday wish can make the person go gaga over it. at least i know that works for me. it is such a sunny and beautiful day today because it is her birthday!!!
remember birth-DAYS! a simple SMS birthday wish can make the person go gaga over it. at least i know that works for me. it is such a sunny and beautiful day today because it is her birthday!!!
Monday, April 16, 2007
look ahead
what do you do when you are stuck? you struggle with all your might. you grab anything that can help you to survive. you shout at the top of your lungs. all you need is help. get the attention of anyone out there and ask for help. but what if the help is not of any use? are you going to smile and say thank you?
you feel the heat. you listen to your heart beat. something is adding weight to you but you just cant shake it off. you know very clearly you should start to do something about it but you just cant. no excuses because you cant find one. you hate it when you cant do it well.
forget it! everything has been finalized. what's the point of looking back in time and whine about how pathetic you have been. it's time to buck up and focus on what is in front of you. it makes people disgusted when you victimize yourself. so what if you have gained their sympathay? are you going to be a better person? it just makes your reliance on others stronger.
i have learnt it through the hard way. why should i open myself up to others when my trust in people does not exist at all anymore? i will manage the situation and solve it myself. at least i know, i wont lose anything after it. i will be a much better person. meanwhile, just mug hard!
you feel the heat. you listen to your heart beat. something is adding weight to you but you just cant shake it off. you know very clearly you should start to do something about it but you just cant. no excuses because you cant find one. you hate it when you cant do it well.
forget it! everything has been finalized. what's the point of looking back in time and whine about how pathetic you have been. it's time to buck up and focus on what is in front of you. it makes people disgusted when you victimize yourself. so what if you have gained their sympathay? are you going to be a better person? it just makes your reliance on others stronger.
i have learnt it through the hard way. why should i open myself up to others when my trust in people does not exist at all anymore? i will manage the situation and solve it myself. at least i know, i wont lose anything after it. i will be a much better person. meanwhile, just mug hard!
Friday, April 13, 2007
friday the thirteen
RUN!!! it is the FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN today. nothing especially unfortunate happened today unless you want to consider sitting beside a sick dabai during marketing tutorial, taking the wrong bus to engin after marketing tutorial and ran in the rain to attend my last class of the sem as unlucky.
last official day of the second sem spells DOOM for me. no play makes me a sad girl. everyday will be dark and depressing, camping within a 4 walls, mugging the hell out of me. all i see are words, papers, textbooks, files, tutorials and assignments. no! i dont want this life. i want to play!! i want to blade!! i want to eat bnj ice cream!!! i want to watch spider man and pirates, at the world's ends!!! i want to spend another night out!!!
last official day of the second sem spells DOOM for me. no play makes me a sad girl. everyday will be dark and depressing, camping within a 4 walls, mugging the hell out of me. all i see are words, papers, textbooks, files, tutorials and assignments. no! i dont want this life. i want to play!! i want to blade!! i want to eat bnj ice cream!!! i want to watch spider man and pirates, at the world's ends!!! i want to spend another night out!!!
Saturday, April 07, 2007
old school favourites
i have watched it thrice and read the novel once. i know the ending. i can remember the key parts. there is limited excitement in watching it but somehow it just drew me in front of the television. i just watched a walk to remember. a simple yet beautiful story.
a story about discoveries, knowing the true you beneath the skin. you have always been acting behind the shadows of others. living a life that does not belong to you. you feel corrupted. often, you are out of breath from the dirt in the city. when is it the time for you to step out and live for yourself? until one day, someone comes along and pulls you out. does not discriminate you for being who you truly are. finally, a someone who listens to your inner feelings.
why are you running away? it does not solve any problems. face it but sadly, i say dont pin much hope. i am starting to hate the word 'hope'. it gives me nothing except emptiness. bigger hopes brings about greater disappointment. is it really time for me to stop hoping for anything? i hate the negative energy that is building within me right at this moment. i want to get rid of it!
nothing seems bright and cheerful for me today. it sucks when i cannot feel the sun on a day like this. what is it hiding from? i am sick of it! how i wish you were in singapore now.
a story about discoveries, knowing the true you beneath the skin. you have always been acting behind the shadows of others. living a life that does not belong to you. you feel corrupted. often, you are out of breath from the dirt in the city. when is it the time for you to step out and live for yourself? until one day, someone comes along and pulls you out. does not discriminate you for being who you truly are. finally, a someone who listens to your inner feelings.
why are you running away? it does not solve any problems. face it but sadly, i say dont pin much hope. i am starting to hate the word 'hope'. it gives me nothing except emptiness. bigger hopes brings about greater disappointment. is it really time for me to stop hoping for anything? i hate the negative energy that is building within me right at this moment. i want to get rid of it!
nothing seems bright and cheerful for me today. it sucks when i cannot feel the sun on a day like this. what is it hiding from? i am sick of it! how i wish you were in singapore now.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
love hate r/s
the weather today just SUCKS!! i was diligently doing my work in the early hours and suddenly, i saw lightning from my mirror. but it did not rain a single drop of water at all the whole night. the next moment when i was awake, the sun was sorching hot as if it was going to burn everything on earth. a few hours later, it started raining and now it is back to sunny day. furthermore it was raining ice in canada last night. what is wrong with the weather?
the weather has described my feelings now, having a love hate relationship with myself. one moment i am determined to do something but when it comes to facing it, i become restless and refuse to take a second look at it. why cant i come clean with myself sometimes?
4 april is a BIG day for liting!!! =) hey girl, sorry that we cant celebrate ur bday with you now. we promise you the best celebration in may okay? thanks for enduring my foul temper for the past few years. this day is dedicated to you! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! =)
the weather has described my feelings now, having a love hate relationship with myself. one moment i am determined to do something but when it comes to facing it, i become restless and refuse to take a second look at it. why cant i come clean with myself sometimes?
4 april is a BIG day for liting!!! =) hey girl, sorry that we cant celebrate ur bday with you now. we promise you the best celebration in may okay? thanks for enduring my foul temper for the past few years. this day is dedicated to you! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! =)
Sunday, April 01, 2007
change
this is what i read from my marketing notes, "the only constant in today's business environment is CHANGE." it makes me want to blog immediately! change is always happening around us. today i woke up from the left side of my bed and the next morning, i woke up from the right side of the bed. see, that is a change! it can be executed easily but the main problem about change is adaption.
some of us just hate change to the core. i dont blame them for that because sometimes i will resist changes too. it is in human's nature to want to be comfortable. that is a want, not a need. we just want to stay in our comfort zone, with the familiar faces and environment. to a small extent, it is good because you can achieve short term happiness. however, in the long run, you may develop this mentality that no matter what happens, you always have the same group of friends around you. bullshit! people dont stay where they are. they move! who will catch your fall the next time? so the bottom line is break free from your boundaries, be daring to try something new and fresh.
some changes are just too harsh or big to accept them. you keep telling yourself that you will slowly adapt to this change but somehow things are not going in the direction you want it to. you start to question your ability, you cannot find an answer and push the blame to everyone, you lock yourself up in the room, and ultimately you hate yourself for being someone you dont recognize. in life, you just have to learn not to take everything too seriously. if you put in 101 percent of your energy in everything, you will be drained and drop dead by the end of each day. the more effort you put in, the greater your expectations. similarly, the greater your expectations, the greater the disappointment. so just take it in your stride and move on.
we should applause for change. it is something positive because it makes people, at least myself to learn and grow. i love change!! but before that, i have to learn how to move on from there.
some of us just hate change to the core. i dont blame them for that because sometimes i will resist changes too. it is in human's nature to want to be comfortable. that is a want, not a need. we just want to stay in our comfort zone, with the familiar faces and environment. to a small extent, it is good because you can achieve short term happiness. however, in the long run, you may develop this mentality that no matter what happens, you always have the same group of friends around you. bullshit! people dont stay where they are. they move! who will catch your fall the next time? so the bottom line is break free from your boundaries, be daring to try something new and fresh.
some changes are just too harsh or big to accept them. you keep telling yourself that you will slowly adapt to this change but somehow things are not going in the direction you want it to. you start to question your ability, you cannot find an answer and push the blame to everyone, you lock yourself up in the room, and ultimately you hate yourself for being someone you dont recognize. in life, you just have to learn not to take everything too seriously. if you put in 101 percent of your energy in everything, you will be drained and drop dead by the end of each day. the more effort you put in, the greater your expectations. similarly, the greater your expectations, the greater the disappointment. so just take it in your stride and move on.
we should applause for change. it is something positive because it makes people, at least myself to learn and grow. i love change!! but before that, i have to learn how to move on from there.
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